I was at a very nice restaurant with my son and his dad the other day. We were among members of the Rotary club that consisted of several well established business people. My son was being honored for having sat on a junior delegation board and having his proposed bill passed. I entitled this blog choices because I could not help but notice that from the time we entered the restaurant, we were presented with choices after choices after choices. Where we sat, what entree to order, tea or lemonade or water, chocolate cake or lemon pie or sorbet or ice cream, cappuccino, coffee or hot tea, so many choices. I always like to order something different than what the person who came with me ordered, so I can taste theirs.
I found myself comparing this little tid bit to my life experience. Why can't I be content with the choice I made and not to hope that if it is not as good as I thought, then maybe I can "taste" my neighbors. And if I taste my neighbors, what if I begin to desire his more. Now I am coming to the meat of my Blog. Wrong choices in life can cause us to look at our neighbor and say "IF". And if we stay there, our entire life can become a big "IF". I wish I could say that in the major choices in life I have always made the right choice. After being married for 18 years and then to be divorced is a choice that I did not make. Because I did nothing, I did everything. And with a stroke of a pen, my marriage was over. Or was it? After almost 2 years of being divorced. we now live together with our two kids...divorced,,a separation of force. but here is the thing, I am deeply involved with another man. My soul is connected to him..I feel. So I find myself making choices again. What the hell is a BLOG anyway. Why do I feel it necessary to talk or write about...'cause I need to read my thoughts,,out loud, so in case I am doing something stupid, at least I can hear myself. I am a woman ready to make a choice in her life that could very well make me or break me. It is a matter of being happy or being content. Concerning my ex, Do I stay even though the fire is gone, but I have on warm clothes or should I go where the fire is without any clothes on and take the chance of getting burned.
Whew! I can't tell you which choice to make... but I can make one major suggestion... embrace YOUR choice. It - is - YOURS! It represents something significant about you... even if the end result is not what you had hoped, it IS what you were supposed to have.
ReplyDeleteAs usual, you are brutally honest with yourself, but even then you don't want to accept what YOU have to say.
and why do you want to "taste" other peoplel's choices?.... that is considered coveting to many; i consider it insecure. you don't believe in yourself... where is your faith, sister? where is YOUR conviction?
shYne
~nice entry~